As I was reading the book - "tuesdays with morrie", I came across this thing. In the book, the lead character, Morrie asks Koppel "Tell me something close to your heart.", and Koppel's reply was about his children.
As I read the above context, I imagined morrie sitting in front of me, and shooting the same question at me - "Well Suresh, Tell me something close to your heart".
I stared at the imaginary-him as I ran the question thrice inside me. In the first run, My parents and my sisters crossed my mind. But I didn't want to talk about them to him for it might sound as a cliche. Apparently, family comes first to anyone's mind, for obvious reasons or in some cases, forced. Hence, I had to run the question again. This time several names - who didn't share a blood relation with me - crossed my mind.
They were -
A - the one whom I thought was the best friend I ever had. He was a cool guy who respected friendship, and was helpful to anyone that he does and doesn't know. I bet he will be the same forever. He was my inspiration in many ways. Though I don't have the same propinquity with him now, he will always remain SPECIAL to me.
B - the one who always has a smile in her face (Heard she cried at times, but couldn't see her cry by myself), and calls me 'thambi' affectionately. There were times when I had to argue and fight with her. There were times when we didn't talk for a while. There were times when we spoke continuously for more than an hour over the phone (It was only with her I did speak for such a long time over the phone).
C - the only person other than me who knows me well - who knows all my secrets, all my happiness, and all my sorrows. I had never thought I would get to meet such a person in my life. My BEST friend i would say, and may be that is why 'C' get to know all about me.
D - the most important of all, the SPECIAL one. (some) people say I'm helpful and caring. In one way, 'D' is the reason behind.
E and F - the two souls who give me support whenever I'm in need of, and want me to acheive my dreams.
As I was cogitating to pick one from the above list, my mind took a pause. It asked me, "You do have few souls to choose from, but what about you being close to someone's heart? Do you at least have anyone who would name you as the one close to their heart?"
Man, it was indeed a question that I can't answer confidently. Even my parents, if asked, would rate my sisters above me for they are, undoubtedly, better than me in every known way. And to be frank, I would endorse it without any second thoughts.
I thought of few names who might say me as the one who is close to their heart, but again i couldn't be confident. It proves I am not a worthy-buddy yet. Man, I should work on it. I have to, and I will.
Hmmm... well, the book made me think. No wonder there are many fans for this book. I myself becoming one among them.
Today is the third day of the year, and I'm already late by 2 days to carry through my resolution (apparently, it could easily be forgiven as I was busy enjoying the past two days @ Vellore with two of my close buddies). Well, I had rounded up on two resolutions on the last day of 2010. It's nothing new or special (I mean taking resolutions here, and not the resolutions itself) as I did the same on every other years that passed by (after I came to know about resolutions). But these two resolutions - one, to keep blogging though I knew there will be no one to read and comment on it and two, to keep reading for at least an hour everyday - are rather special and significant to me as I feel this year is going to be a make or break for me.I, personally, feel this year is going to play a crucial role in my passions, my dreams as in my life. Though 2010 was good, memorable and fun-filled, in a schema of personal front - it was equally a lamentable year that I would want to forget for few surreptitious reasons. Henceforth, I should make amends in 2011. I want to make this year as the one that I have never had, of course in a positive way. Let me see where the world takes me, or where I take the world.
Getting back to the resolutions - (i) Keep blogging - as I mentioned earlier, I know I could hardly get people following this blog, let alone comment on it. After all, this is more of a personal thing than being social. Who in this world cares about the personal scribbling of some preposterous guy when they find it hard to get time to care about themselves? So I too don't care about it either. So the bottom line of this resolution is - "Let your heart speak, and thereof, let your mind hear it"
(ii) Keep reading - Just read, read and read. It will make me lay a path in which others, sooner or later, will travel. Read to make my mind think, act and more importantly WORK in a positive way. Nothing in this world makes anyone stupendous as much as reading does. So the bottom line of this resolution is - "Read - whatever you feel worthy, or make whatever you read - worthy."
Well, so by tying this I'm on the mission of carrying out my first resolution. On a positive note, I had already started executing my second with "tuesdays with morrie" - a book gifted to me on my last b'day by my friend. Hope many more will be added in this list...
In a jiffy, a commendable start to 2011. All I should do, going forward, is to carry on the momentum. I hope I will.
bye,Suresh R
